Showering is overrated!

So it's not that I'm against showering, because believe me I like to get one in every once in a while, but once you have kids its way overrated. So its not that at this point Natalie isn't old enough to entertain herself while I shower, its just that I am unable to shower on my own now. I miss the days when she would be napping in her crib and I was having a lovely shower, all by my little ol' self enjoying the moment. Now I try and SNEAK into my room and quickly get into the bathroom before she notices I'm gone, or else it turns into this mornings string of events. I walk in the room quiet as a mouse and suddenly from behind I hear, "what you doing mama?" I say, "nothing, what are you doing?" "are you gonna shower mama:?" a small voice says. "Umm, yeah, why don't you go watch Dora, I'll turn it on!!!" This is sure to distract her. "No I'm dirty, I'm gonna shower with you"
"I don't think you need to shower with me, don't you want to watch Dora and take a bath afterwards" short pause... "No mama I wanna shower with you. Please (cute little grin that will melt your heart)" So here I am once again having to shower with a two year old. My own fault I know cause I have a really hard time telling her no and listening to her scream outside the door while I shower. I figure its better to let her in than to deal with that. So I say, "why don't you go potty before you get in so you won't have to go" Natalie says "No I don't need to go potty"
We commence to the shower. We are in there for less than one minute, I am doing my power shower so we can just get out when what does she say "Mama I need to go potty." WHAT DID YOU SAY!!! I JUST asked you, and you said no. Can you hold it. Of course she can't hold it. So we are now covered in soap getting out of the shower to go potty. After freezing to death we are now back in the shower. "I don't like the water in my eyes (whine, whine, whine) I don't want soap on me, I don't want to get clean" Finally its over, I wrap her in a towel and I proceed to get dressed and ready. "Do you look fat mama" says the little voice coming out beneith the towel. YES, just what I wanted to hear out of the mouth of a two year old!! What do I say, yes I feel fat, but I have to tell her no, and quit saying I'm fat so she won't be the only 2 year old in the world who thinks she's fat! AHHHHHH!! Must I shower anymore!

Changes

So I have been thinking about things a lot lately. I know thats a stretch but sometimes it has to be done. I have been thinking about how quickly things change in your life and about how quickly things come and go. I guess I have started to realize why my belief in the Lord is so important because of how much things change. I don't know if that makes any sense, but He never changes and I guess that gives me stability. This week my sister will be here visiting, which I cannot wait! For those of you that don't know she has Chronic Myloid Lukemia and has been living with it for 5 years now. She was diagnosed about 6 months before my father passed away of brain cancer. It has been a crazy 5 years in my life with my father passing away, Susan getting sick and Shaun and I having our first child. What a whirlwind huh? We will be spreading my dads ashes FINALLY this weekend and I think it has finally hit me that life isn't going to be the same, Natalie isn't going to know her grandpa, my sister will probably never be well; but despite all of these things everything is going to be okay. I have been inwardly emotional these last few weeks thinking about my father and finally putting him to rest. Our relationship was crazy and very rocky, but for the most part there was more love than anything. I don't think I realized until recently that I have needed to just forgive and just love him, and even though he isn't here to say it to I say thank you for all of the wonderful things in my life that you gave me. I know he is in heaven and can hear me and I know he is proud of me and the path I am on today. So this week will be an emotional cleansing experience and an enlightenment for me to move forward and to grasp the happiness that is in front of me right now! I know Natalie has already met him in heaven because she acts way too much like him! She is just as smart as he was, and just as hot tempered as her grandpa!! I hope I can teach her all of the great things that he taught me so she can have wonderful thoughts of the man she never met but means so much in her life! So I tell myself before I go this weekend, enjoy life, and embrace todays journey, let go of yesterdays, but keep it in your heart so it touches your life every day!


So as I talk about change some things never change, and thats great friends! I got to see some wonderful friends that I haven't seen for a long while! It's great when you move and grow that you have some true friends you can still hang on to and always have a special connection with them. One of our old friend Carrie who moved to Colorado was passing through and we all got together with our combined 8 children (I only supplied 1!) and had a great time for a day! I can't wait to see them again! And Tammy, send me the pictures would ya!

I'm also greatful I got to spend some quality time with my great friend Dacia. No matter how long it's been since we've seen eachother, I always feel like we've never been apart! I got to spend a day with her before she took off to her new life in California, and I am so greatful for that time we spent together. I know no matter where we are in this world we will always be kindred spirits!! Good luck Dacia on your new journey I hope it leads you to a lifetime of happiness!!

So my last comment on changes, (I know this is getting long I will shut up at some point) my darling little girl my how she is growing! Sometimes I wonder how it goes so fast and how she can change so much from day to day. I'm not sure which one of us is more strong willed, but she by far has more energy so she ends up winning the battles. But just so you know, I am winning the war!! I am not quite sure how a 15 year old spirit is trapped in my 2 year olds body, but I am sure that she is far to young to act the way she does. If she's not rolling her eyes at me she is sighing at me or making some snide comment such as "what are you even talking about" or "If you don't stop mom I'm going to give you a spanking and send you to time out" And believe me this is not an exageration, she says those exact words to me! So I guess I end this post saying, I wish somedays she would stop changing so fast, and other days I think when will she change again so this drama will end! But no matter what comes next, it will be better than the last!!

New Puppy

Natalie recently got a new puppy which she names Dante. She is in love with him, except when he is biting on her clothing or jumping in her face. She loves him so much but it seems every day ends in her crying because Dante was mean and he hurt her and she is so angry!! Then she grabs him around the neck and says, oh Dante I love you! They are quite the funny pair.

Here goes nothing!

Well, everyone and their dogs, yes even peoples dogs, are telling me I must create a blog so here goes nothing. I'm not sure what I could have to say that would be interesting to the world, but I will try to provide some entertainment for you out there reading. Shaun and I are quite boring, but we do have a hilariously funny 2 1/2 year old who is keeping us quite entertained. Natalie was full of life since the day she came to us, and keeps becoming more and more like her mom which is becoming a bit scarey for me!! In public most people thinks she is mute because she is so scared of public and strangers, but when you get home the motor mouth never stops!! She is convinced she can read so she reads me books all day long and plays her piano and sings me primary songs that she tends to make up the words to because she is an embellisher. She bosses her dolls around like she is their mother, and tells them things like "you are so frustrating", gee I wonder where she hears that! She loves to be a princess and dress up in her dresses and pretend she is getting married! Then while in her princess dress she makes me be the wicked stepmother on Cinderella and be the "mean lady" I tell her I don't have to pretend to be the mean lady, but she doesn't get it quite yet!! She also thinks she can drive a car, which is quite funny, and she sits there and asks me if she can get her drivers license!

Shaun is still working at Micron and really enjoys his job. I am a stay at home mom and love most every minute of it! I thought I would be less busy but it seems like the days fly by and I don't know where the time goes.I have really gotten into scrabooking which is amazing since I never thought I had a creative bone in my body!! Thanks for reading, and I'll get to posting some pictures of our little family and all our silly adventures!!